“Stop reading stupid quotes and take some action” – Aristotle
Alright, first quarter into 2016. There’s been quite some changes lately, some positive and some not so positive. The major ones that happened are;
- I’ve started the last +-4 months of college, demanding an insane amount of my time and energy + For some inexplicable reason I have none of the latter (will do a blood-check soon).
- I’ve moved back home (living on a dorm room is over now).
I don’t really believe I’ve achieved that much the last three months and overall was pretty negative throughout march because school is demanding so much of my energy & time. Which I still believe is a complete waste of time.
I kinda feel like my life sucks at this point and might even be the lowest I’ve felt in quite a while (last two years). It’s simply an observation that the situation I’m in at the moment must be greatly improved upon – not negativity. Since there’s simply no use in dwelling on negativity. Nothing changes and nobody cares.
Therefore I’ll keep this review short-ish (are they ever?).
I’m also not going to spam this article to my email list as I mostly write them for myself, to give me a clear overview of my life in retrospect and clearly analyze what I need to work on. Feedback is always welcome and appreciated though.
> I’ll reach Dual N back Lvl 6 (10 games/day)I’ve realized this isn’t worth the time invested and therefore cancelled the goal. There’s not many scientific proof that backs up that doing this training carries over in other cognitive disciplines. My memory is still crap though.
> I’ll do a 80% consistent MR (58,3%)
This means I’ve woken up around 6:30, 42 out of the 72 days I should have. This is incredibly low, probably the lowest I’ve had so far.
> I’ll read 8 books
Crucial conversations, models, how to talk to anyone, rails crash course, psycho-cybernetics
Great books, mostly focusing down on improving social/career skills & re-visiting some of my favorites. Due to time constraints I’ve stopped reading in the morning & started programming for 1-1,5 hours in the morning (since it’s more important IMO). Here’s some quotes I liked;
“Relationships die when we stop talking about things that matter (anger or indifference). We grow resentful when we don’t talk about what matters”
Our fight or flight instinct makes us incredibly incompetent at handling difficult conversations. Most people handle them badly.
I’ve been coping with a lot of negativity lately. Mainly because my school is demanding an incredible amount of time and energy to complete utterly useless tasks (working for free for 350h for someone & writing an 18 000+ word thesis on health).
I’m going to fucking graduate in july, period. I’m going to leave that shit behind forever. (And prob. going to write an angry post about what you should learn when you’re young.)
Also moved back home with my mom. Which is a stupid little town in the middle of nowhere. I want to move out as soon as (financially) possible since it sincerely limits me in approaching girls, social activities, commuting, privacy, positive environment, opportunities …. .
> I’ll weigh 86kg in the morning, 13% bf (or less)
I’ve been bulking up since december-ish and have gained about 6kg & 3% body-fat. Currently (April) I’m going back down to 8% body fat, probably the leanest I’ve been since 2012. Here’s my current meal plan & a physique update (morning, no-pump). I’m 85,2 at around 12-13% (estimate).
> I’ll have my back injury cured – if not by end januari -> 2nd opinion
Still not better despite asking 2 physicians for their “expertise”. I’ve done a full body-scan and apparently I have a protruding discus, the start of a hernia. The physician has recommended some core stability exercises as my TVA (deeper abs) are underdeveloped compared to my back and this is what (supposedly) led to this injury. Now that I have a decent strategy to combat this injury it (normally) should be fixed in 1-2 months (end June).
> I’ll have 7,5 Hours Of Sleep Each Night On Average (8,4)
I’ve been getting quite enough sleep.
> I’ll have 7,5+ average energy (6,4)
But despite that don’t seem to be getting more energy. There’s a shitload of factors that contribute to energy levels. Here’s some questions I’ve been asking myself;
- Sickness? Ejaculations? Micronutriënt deficiencies? Enough calories? Keto transition? Bad quality food? Enough hours of sleep? Sleep Quality? Bad sleep consistency? Chronic stress? Motivated/excited? Stimulation level? Is pluto aligned with the right star?
And I can’t seem to figure out why it’s so inconsistent despite optimizing these factors (planet pluto doesn’t always cooperate though) . Overall I believe it’s due to a negative mindset, chronic stress, too low carb on heavy training & sleep inconsistency. Diet has changed a lot the last weeks since I’m starting my cut now. But just to be sure I’m going to take a blood & stool test (done this today). Here’s an overview of my health (energy) the last 7 weeks – absolute garbage.
> I’ll do a 1 week vegan experiment & bulletproof coffee
The vegan week was overall pretty crappy. I don’t recommend anyone doing a similar type of diet. Humans should eat meat. period. We’ve been hunters and gathers for the biggest part of our existence, there’s no changing our biological make-up for the latest cultural trends. Bulletproof coffee hasn’t been really noticeable on my cognitive performance and therefore stopped it. I also believe you shouldn’t drink coffee on a regular basis since it blocks the receptors in the brain which register tiredness. The body should be allowed to be tired and recover when it is tired.
I’m having inexplicably low energy levels; Trouble thinking, memorizing, argumentation, following conversation-threads and so-forth. Abnormal shit. I’m getting a blood-test soon to see what’s going on since this seriously is screwing up my life quality.
> I’ll succeed the business course (12/01/16)
I’ve done an exam on business essentials (law, bookkeeping, …). This was required for starting a business.
> I’ll file a business for truetech (12/01/16)
I’ve started my first company. Nothing spectacular – I do some free-lance web development – but only have had 2 customers so far. I’m more using it as a portfolio to land a front-end web-developing job soon.
> I’ll develop a website for truetech (fancy one-pager)
I’m getting better at this – but I don’t know if it’s enough to land me a job in front-end development though. Need to accurately devise a plan for the future. A la free-work from Charlie Hoehn.
> I’ll upload my portfolio application to SimonSomlai.com
It’s currently offline and links back to my company website. Here’s what my progression looks like, compared to the new one;
> I’ll build at least 7 web applications: (3); Portfolio (offline), TrueTech, Multi-author blog)
> I’ll get at least 7 paying clients for truetech
So far I’ve had two customers on upwork.com. I’ve been doing the assignments they give me but haven’t received any payment so far. It’s good experience nevertheless.
Not a priority at this point.
> I’ll write the cooking-book for my internship and create an initiative for his email-list
I’ve started on a cookbook for my final internship. I’ve spent a shitload of time on it so far but still needs a lot of damn work.
> I’ll have my thesis completed
Same thing. I have to write a paper on healthy nutrition and make a video course based on that information. Still needs a crapton of work. Looks pretty fancy though, simple overview. I’ve made a small demo available here
> I’ll get another part-time job starting in februari (80€/week, 1/2days)
I have only gotten another part-time job since 26 march. But it pays me at least 85€/week which keeps me going for now. It pays for a decent level of good quality food.
> I’ll spend < 60€/week (spent 88€/week on average)
Got some new unexpected costs like a new gym membership, business registration, back injury, … .
I’m doing ok financially. By getting a regular side-job I’m able to get my food quality to a decent level although it doesn’t seem to show in my energy. Main frustration is the time I need to invest into school.
The fact it even falls under the category “wealth” is a joke. Programming has been increasingly better and there’s definitely career potential there, but the low energy makes it near impossible to get any serious work done.
Unlike previous jobs I’ve had to do it’s actually cognitively demanding.
> I’ll do 90 approaches (46), 9 dates (4), 4 girls kissed (5)
This was primarily the first two months (jan & feb) when I still lived at my dorm. I still went to the train station about three times/week to talk to girls to overcome social anxiety and become more confident around attractive girls. Approached 46 girls, 4 girls dated, 5 girls kissed & had sex with 3 new girls (more than whole last year combined = good!).
> I’ll do 4 meetups/events
– FOSDEM (30 & 31 januari)
“A Free and Open Source Developers’ European Meeting”. Basically it’s a bunch of developers meeting up to share the latest trends in the sector. Pretty cool experience.
– Tech Startup Day (18/02/2016)
Didn’t keep track of this & missed it. Was also kind of expensive.
– Ruby Meetup (jan, feb & march)
A series of ruby on rails meetups with people who already know what they’re doing. I’m kind of using them as a mentoring group. But due to moving back home, this meet-up is now on the other side of the country basically.
– Yevgueni (15/01/2016)
One singer I really like. Was great, would definitely do this again.
– Guido Belcanto (x/02/2016)
Another singer. This guy sucked however & I left earlier.
> I’ll see/skype Nicolas & Michael at least once a week!
I’ve missed one week the last three months I didn’t see both of them. I feel increasingly like we’re each going our own way.
> I’ll organize/plan 1 boardgame evening every other week
I haven’t been prioritizing my social hobbies much since the incredible energy & time demands of school. But I still like to resume this once I move out of the house.
The positive dating experiences in the beginning of the year were great (and probably the best results I’ve had in my entire life). Had a blast “overcoming” my approach anxiety and lurking in the train station stalking innocent, cute girls. It’s definitely worth the time invested and something I’ll resume in the future.
At this time it’s simply not a priority though – Sex is fun and attractive girls are awesome to hang out with (and definitely something you should work hard on) but it simply doesn’t change anything. At the end of the day you’ve made zero fucking progress.
It’s (hardly – but you get the point) similar to going to Disney land or eating McDonalds. It’s fun for a few hours and makes you feel warm and fuzzy on the inside but it makes relatively very little impact on your life quality. Especially when other things are more urgent.
Atm, I want to make more money in an IT-based job so I’ll be able to move to a big city with more opportunities and freedom, period. That’s literally it.
I’m still worried sometimes if I shouldn’t invest more in building up a more substantial social network. However, I rarely meet people who are driven/ambitious enough to start a friendship with. I feel like old connections are getting weaker since we’re each going our separate way.
However I still have to put an effort into it & the factors I can control are openness (sharing everything/talking about what matters) and engagement (putting in effort to actively meet up regularly). We’ll see where this goes.
> I’ll easily go to FOSDEM (30 & 31 januari)
> I’ll easily go to Tech Startup Day (18/02/2015
> I’ll easily go to Yevgueni (15/01/2016)
> I’ll easily go to Guido Belcanto (x/02/2016)
I’d want to say; fuck fun, just hustle. But in the long-run that’s not viable. Remembering to go easy once in a while is important, we simply weren’t build for chronically elevated levels of cortisol – you can either make time to rest & reflect or time to crash/break down from chronic stress overload.
Make a list of things that relax you and make sure to do something from that list once in a while
So, that’s where I’m at right now. Overall I’d rate my life a 5/10. Nothing spectacular and I’d even say a regression on previous achievements. A situation I want to get away from.
I hope I’ll be able to bring a better report next quarter. Here’s some lessons I picked up throughout the last three months;
- Selling is convincing others of the value of your product/service. Value is completely subjective.
- Skills get sharp slowly and dull quickly.
- Almost everything is made, not born.
- Clear the desk from all tasks not related to your one thing. Shut out the rest of the world & turn off all notifications for an hour or two, once a day & produce high quality intellectual work at the top of your ability.
- There’s relatively little that others can/will do for you that makes a significant impact on your life quality.
- Culture does not allow us to transcend our biology. “many human adaptations did not necessarily evolve to promote physical or mental well-being.” They evolved to “promote relative reproductive success (fitness). (Meaning humans didn’t evolve to become optimally healthy, just healthy enough to reproduce)
- “Sleep is the interest we have to pay on the capital which is called in at death. The higher the interest rate and the more regularly it is paid, the further the date of redemption is postponed.”
- “In today’s global economy here is what is scarce:
- Quality land and natural resources
- Intellectual property, or good ideas about what should be produced.
- Quality labor with unique skills
- Here is what is not scarce these days:
- Unskilled labor, as more countries join the global economy
- Money in the bank or held in government securities, which you can think of as simple capital, not attached to any special ownership rights
- Don’t let disaster and success get you too far off-track in getting what you want; Find new ways to engage yourself. Do the most actionable thing when in doubt – something is better than nothing, even if it’s the wrong thing
- “Sometimes human systems become so large that they hurt people, not by design, but by inertia (too complex to be altered). And it’s beyond any of our ability to grasp, let alone control.” – Mark Manson on poverty & immigration
- “The brick walls are there for a reason. The brick walls are not there to keep us out. The brick walls are there to give us a chance to show how badly we want something. Because the brick walls are there to stop the people who don’t want it badly enough. They’re there to stop the other people.”
- “I have absolutely no idea what to do or how to do it, and I know absolutely nobody who does either.”
- Offering fewer services (so fewer angles to make money) to less people (who can pay you) can actually make you more money – Glenn Alsopp
- Life will conspire against you, to bring you to your knees
- Life: “figure out how to do it once, then save it in a script – repeat”. (Find one path to health, wealth & love and you’re golden)
- Feeling manipulative comes from bad intentions OR hidden intentions
- Practically all of the best opportunities (in business, in romance, etc) are only offered to people who already have more than they need. Being in shape, being great with women and being wealthy (and getting more of it) is easy. Getting there is the only hard part.
- Most relationships are codependent, chosen out of scarcity and loneliness instead of abundance.
- General social skills translate/transfer into being good with women
- As with any type of failure – it’s not until a certain amount that you realize how little it matters
- Who are others to decide what a good personality is like?
- You are what you’re good at (how other people perceive you).
- “If you don’t get your career right – you’re going to hate most of your life” – tai lopez
- Rejection is a better feeling than loneliness/regret
That’s all there is to say for today.
How was your last quarter?